Age of souls!

A long time ago, approximately 1000 years if you tell me to count, HE and I was gossiping on the UNIVERSE. Those days I just found the shelter under  LINDA GOODMAN and Parashara (a very little), Gaimini even KRS also far away yet then. I just asked him, "what do you think about your soul age?" and the reply took just some micro seconds that 'sound' could take overcome a distance of 5ft (usually we sit like that). He replied, "I am about 1486 years old.." he never stops until he can include me with him and he continued, "and you are at 1228". 

Normally he is an over ambitious, self-obsessed, self-indulgent man and yes sometimes he is bloody true, though I did not trust on his age calculation fully and  still I'm not. I believe if someone is such an older by his/her soul he/she must have some control over the circumstances or otherwise the circumstances will provide them a lot of  comfort by birth. He has some arguments i.e; 'this is kaliyug where we all have to suffer from the reality and illusion, where fictions are more powerful than truth and money is the main determinant how could you expect some justice?'. Again he is true but I still I have some arguments, but before that I might no, I must have to give a preface of the subject matter unless I think all these are very Greek to all of you. :) ;)

I'm trying to make it very short, easy and precise. According to Vedic Shastras (scripture) and spiritual philosophy there is a power which derives any kind of living thing that is call 'Atma' (Spirit). Sharir (body) is the platform or device and Atma is the conductor or the mechanic. By birth to birth this Atma gets experienced to become free by moving or changing body to body in every birth according to its Karma (deeds in every mortal life time). Must need an example, lets think of an Atma which took birth from a body of a dog and by the deeds of that life time, if those are good it (the Atma) could get better body if those are bad the platform must be the same or lower.* In this journey the last and ever best platform the Atma could get in this Earth is the human body from where it could initialize it's journey to become free (eternal freedom = Mukti). 

Now I have seen many people who have a huge knowledge and own view to see this world still they are useless in terms of social structure, and in the other hand there are many many such people who belongs with luck, respect, power, wealth, honor and above of all  loads of fan following where they have hardly a bit of knowledge or at least a little self realization.

There is a story Ramkrisna Paramahansa Deb (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ramakrishna) said to his follower in his own style, once there were two tantrik(who follows the rituals of tantra** in the time of pursuit) yogis who were absorbed in their pursuit of cherished fulfillment in a cremation  and after a point of time they both succeed in their pursuit and get blessed by facing their cherished Goddess but one of them get mad just after seeing her and watching that incident the other yogi asked to the Goddess, "why this has been happened to him?"  Goddess replied, "this had been happened many many times with you in yous past lives ". Ramakrishna ended up his story by saying, 'everyone has his/her limits in their present birth ( "ek jonme ki ar hoyre!"), someone get drunk in two pegs and some of them are hard to get drunk even after 2 bottles.'  

My condition is very poor, I don't know where to end as this subject is heavier than my capacity and knowledge, just meanwhile writing this blog I  goggled to find exact meaning of tantra I found many things about tantra and Buddhism and my queries arouse again that if there is nothing to be happened then why and this ideas come to me? and  if this ideas are the links then why not anything or something is still not happening? ........Yeah I know the answer but could not satiated my thirst of desires (definitely in some of them I am more deserving candidate than some other.) 

Lastly that is why I oppose 'him', either this 1200 or 1400 years of age is very childish in matter of soul's age or else He is wrong. According to me (though now I am also habituated with this thought of age he said I possess and feel to some extend of happy) he is at 900 and mine is 855. 

* firstly, I tried my ever best possible and easiest way to describe such a heavy matter for more knowledge please show some interest I will definitely try to leave no stone unturned.

** Tantra is the name given by scholars to a style of meditation and ritual which arose in India no later than the 5th century AD.

কাল অতি বিচিত্র বস্তু।

সময়ে সময়ে খুব কাঁদতে ইচ্ছা করে। আমার মা বলেন, 'কান্দন কান্দন গাও করে', করে হয়ত। অনেক সময় কিছু শব্দ কিছু লেখা পড়লে মনটা উচাটন হয়ে ওঠে। আজ সকালে বৃষ্টি শুনে দেখে ঘুম ভেঙেছে তারপর আবার ঘুমিয়েছি কিন্তু মনটা তখন থেকেই নীচস্থ হয়ে আছে। স্বাভাবিক একটা প্রশ্ন আসে কেন? উত্তর টা সেভাবেই দিতে গেলে এতটা রাবিন্দ্রীক হতে হবে যে পড়তায় পোষাবে না। সোজা কথায় চাওয়া আর পাওয়ায় একটা বিস্তর গোঁজামিল চলছে।
প্রেম বিষয়টা দিন কে দিন আমার কাছে এমন জটিল হয়ে যাচ্ছে কি বলব? বা ঠিক প্রেম না সম্পর্ক। যেমন সম্পর্ক কি স্থিতিশীল নাকি পরিবর্তনশীল নাকি থাক আরেকজন শীলের কথা নাহয় বাদ ই দিলাম। তা যাহোক আমি একটি দম্পতির জীবনের ছোট একটা গপ্পো বলি, পুরুষ মানুষটি  লেখক নিজের মনে থাকে, খায় দায় ভাবে আর লেখে। একদিন বাড়িতে বেশ পঞ্চ-ব্যঞ্জন আয়োজন হয়েছে। লেখক ভদ্রলোকের লটে মাছ খাবার সাধ জেগেছে, বউ কে বললেন, 'লটে মাছটা করলেনা?' বউ বলল, 'আজ এত কিছু হল ওটা কাল করলে হয়না?' লেখকের উত্তর, "না করতে পারলে থাকার দরকার কি? চলে যাও।' এরপর ও তারা ৫৩বছর সংসার করেছিলেন।
এরকম কেউ থাকতেই পারেন তার মনে হল এটা ঘোর পুরুষতান্ত্রিক একটা গপ্পো, হতেই পারে সে দায় কর্তৃপক্ষের নয়। আর এরকম এবং অন্যরকম ও তাবৎ ঘটনা আছে  আর আজকের দিনের সম্পর্কের কথা নাহয় নাই বললাম, এক্ষেত্রে হয়ত নিতান্তই দুর্ভাগ্যবশতঃ আমার অভিজ্ঞতা খারাপ। আমার ও কোন কাব্যিক ন্যায়বিচার পাবার অবকাশ নেই।
এই লিখতে লিখতেই প্রমান হল এসব নিয়ে ভাবার কোন কারণ নেই এটা ভাবছিলাম কারণ কালকের একজনের কিছু কথা, আজকের মনখারাপ করা বৃষ্টি এবং সামান্য তরলীকৃত মস্তিষ্ক বিকৃতি বা বিভ্রম।
আমার গুরুদেব তার বই তে ডায়লগ দিয়েছিলেন(রেখেছিলেন), "কাল। কাল অতি বিচিত্র বস্তু।" সেই কথাটি আমি আবার বুঝলুম। হলিউড প্রেম নিয়ে অনেক গবেষনা করেছে, ভালো প্রেম, কালো প্রেম, শোয়া প্রেম, বসা প্রেম, আধা প্রেম, জোড়া প্রেম, হাফ সোল প্রেম, লেঙ্গি প্রেম, জন্ডিস প্রেম, , প্রেমহীন প্রেম মায় অপ্রেম্ প্রেম নিয়েও বোধহয় কাজ করেছে। দেখে শেখা আমার স্বভাব নয় আমার অত বুদ্ধিই নেই বুধ আমার নীচস্থ, আমি ঠেকে বুঝি তারপর দেখি। সেইমত বুঝলাম এই ভালো, চল যা হচ্ছে হোক যা হচ্ছেনা না তার গপ্পো বানিয়ে দাও( যদিও দেশটার নাম ভারত তারউপর আবার বঙ্গভূম)।


পুনঃ নামকরণের সার্থকতা নিয়ে প্রশ্ন তুলবেন না বহুদিন পর লিখছি এই না কত ইয়ে।

Dhonyobad.

lokta chole jawar por theke tNar sommondhe ekti kothao bolini, bolar proyojon bodh korini. se ekprokar rongo mone hyechilo sedin tNake niye tNar mrityu poroborti jono-protikriya dekhe shune. uni chole jabar por oNr ekta chobio ami r dekhini (ekbar 'hirer angti' chara).
oNr chole jabar ager rate khub jhor brishti hoyechilo besh baje rokomer bishonnota r durjog dutor e gondho makhano chilo. onake niye ar baki manush jon jotota ageg tarito chilen achen ami otota konokalei chilam na sesh danike aro kome gechilo bivinno karone tobu mrityu sonbad ta sune osthir hoye porechilam, koshto temon pini.
byakhamulok dwondwe jabona  onek rothi moharothira achen onar snehodhonyo, se somoy tuku paini ami r somporko patalei dukhito hote hobe, dukher kotha likhe dukho barano ta amar kache khub ojouktik kaj.
janina ami konodin cinema banabo kina banele ki hobe ityadi ityadi... kintu jokhon cinema dekhchi r sikhchi se somoy onek mohan loker cinema thik sojhyo hotona, mohotwo niye sondeho jagto tobu nijer khomota bodhsokti niye aj kal porshu ami sobsomoy e soman biswashi. hya se somoy vodroloker cinema besh valo lagto. tokhon ekbar ami r amar ek bondhu dujonei sohomot hoyechilam banglay manik babur pore ekmatro oi lokta r kau nei market e. ekhon oboshyo kothata eke vabe bolbo na.
jak besi likhbo na, asole eto porechi sunechi oNr sommonde je amar lekhata aropito hoye jete pare. asol kothata holo goto soptaher 'robbar'-(songbad protidin theke robibar kore berono ekti saptahik potrika) ta porchilam, sekhane oNr ekta oprokashito chitronatyer khosra diyeche porte porte abar onekdin bade prochondo lekhar echa holo...majhe lekhar ei omanushik eccha ta samoyik multubi chilo. ami somoyer upor jothesto biswashi er pichone kalker ekta ghotonao hoyto dayi tobu oNr ei porokkho uskanita ograjhyo korte parchina.
Dhonyobad Rituporno Ghosh.

DREAM!

I thought I would post a piece of blog just after the new year, and I wrote it but some how I couldn't post. Actually I don't like much interference in my creation whether it is good or bad, even if that is done by me.

Now, this post is very personal, but at the same time I want to publicize it. A few days ago I was talking to a friend of mine, about the side-effects of marriage not about the film of Farhan Akhtar and Vidya Balan realising soon :P.  We were talking because many of our friend and she is  also married now. Here, I don't want to write the arguments I did for why I don't want to get married, but the very next question she asked me was, 'what I want to do with my life?' I told her that I have some targets to achieve and some dreams also, it might happen that I couldn't reach my targets, but I can try for them, but if the dreams come true, then it just would be a mere luck.

I started my career as a writer four years back. I was a theater actor and  that time my father passed away and eventually I entered in this screen writing profession. I always noticed that life never offered me the smooth ways and when it seems to be smooth I couldn't accept it in the other way. Then after I moved here and there with lot of expectation that I could make a movie though I assisted one and only movie (officially) and that was a super hit, but my luck did not leave me and I could not rather I would say I did not pursue as an assistant director. Yes, I have a huge ego problem, don't worry it is just inside me and now it is leaving.

Here comes the dream part, when I was in the motion of learning cinema I thought of some utopia since last in 2012, but now as 'Saturn is in the Libra' whether it is good or bad for me, my vision has changed.  No more poetic gesture, one thing I understand that I have to have a rich man. I never wanted to be a businessman, but I always like those who achieved the power, money and contacts by their clever mind and deals. I can smell the essence of  money. I feel that if I could do well in business, then I shall obviously produce my film or get one easily, but if not, then at list I have a business for me, but if I could not make a film ever, then I will be at nowhere. Maybe my reasons are not up to the mark or totally junk for some people, but I have some clear vision about what I can do and what I can't. My easiest way to reach my targets could be wrong or questionable to success, but that's mine and I never worked (whenever and whatever I do so) without a plan 'b' unless that one and half years when I spent marvelous winter and enjoyed really 'hwat' summer and so on the rest of the seasons.