I thought I would post a piece of blog just after the new year, and I wrote it but some how I couldn't post. Actually I don't like much interference in my creation whether it is good or bad, even if that is done by me.
Now, this post is very personal, but at the same time I want to publicize it. A few days ago I was talking to a friend of mine, about the side-effects of marriage not about the film of Farhan Akhtar and Vidya Balan realising soon :P. We were talking because many of our friend and she is also married now. Here, I don't want to write the arguments I did for why I don't want to get married, but the very next question she asked me was, 'what I want to do with my life?' I told her that I have some targets to achieve and some dreams also, it might happen that I couldn't reach my targets, but I can try for them, but if the dreams come true, then it just would be a mere luck.
I started my career as a writer four years back. I was a theater actor and that time my father passed away and eventually I entered in this screen writing profession. I always noticed that life never offered me the smooth ways and when it seems to be smooth I couldn't accept it in the other way. Then after I moved here and there with lot of expectation that I could make a movie though I assisted one and only movie (officially) and that was a super hit, but my luck did not leave me and I could not rather I would say I did not pursue as an assistant director. Yes, I have a huge ego problem, don't worry it is just inside me and now it is leaving.
Here comes the dream part, when I was in the motion of learning cinema I thought of some utopia since last in 2012, but now as 'Saturn is in the Libra' whether it is good or bad for me, my vision has changed. No more poetic gesture, one thing I understand that I have to have a rich man. I never wanted to be a businessman, but I always like those who achieved the power, money and contacts by their clever mind and deals. I can smell the essence of money. I feel that if I could do well in business, then I shall obviously produce my film or get one easily, but if not, then at list I have a business for me, but if I could not make a film ever, then I will be at nowhere. Maybe my reasons are not up to the mark or totally junk for some people, but I have some clear vision about what I can do and what I can't. My easiest way to reach my targets could be wrong or questionable to success, but that's mine and I never worked (whenever and whatever I do so) without a plan 'b' unless that one and half years when I spent marvelous winter and enjoyed really 'hwat' summer and so on the rest of the seasons.
Now, this post is very personal, but at the same time I want to publicize it. A few days ago I was talking to a friend of mine, about the side-effects of marriage not about the film of Farhan Akhtar and Vidya Balan realising soon :P. We were talking because many of our friend and she is also married now. Here, I don't want to write the arguments I did for why I don't want to get married, but the very next question she asked me was, 'what I want to do with my life?' I told her that I have some targets to achieve and some dreams also, it might happen that I couldn't reach my targets, but I can try for them, but if the dreams come true, then it just would be a mere luck.
I started my career as a writer four years back. I was a theater actor and that time my father passed away and eventually I entered in this screen writing profession. I always noticed that life never offered me the smooth ways and when it seems to be smooth I couldn't accept it in the other way. Then after I moved here and there with lot of expectation that I could make a movie though I assisted one and only movie (officially) and that was a super hit, but my luck did not leave me and I could not rather I would say I did not pursue as an assistant director. Yes, I have a huge ego problem, don't worry it is just inside me and now it is leaving.
Here comes the dream part, when I was in the motion of learning cinema I thought of some utopia since last in 2012, but now as 'Saturn is in the Libra' whether it is good or bad for me, my vision has changed. No more poetic gesture, one thing I understand that I have to have a rich man. I never wanted to be a businessman, but I always like those who achieved the power, money and contacts by their clever mind and deals. I can smell the essence of money. I feel that if I could do well in business, then I shall obviously produce my film or get one easily, but if not, then at list I have a business for me, but if I could not make a film ever, then I will be at nowhere. Maybe my reasons are not up to the mark or totally junk for some people, but I have some clear vision about what I can do and what I can't. My easiest way to reach my targets could be wrong or questionable to success, but that's mine and I never worked (whenever and whatever I do so) without a plan 'b' unless that one and half years when I spent marvelous winter and enjoyed really 'hwat' summer and so on the rest of the seasons.
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