dukhito...(sorry)

দুঃখিত! আমি সত্যিই দুঃখিত! কারণ নিজের অবহেলাতেই এতদিন ব্লগটা অব্যবহৃত পড়েছিল। মাঝখানে যে একদম মনে পড়েনি তা নয় তবু লেখা হয়ে ওঠেনি। ব্যক্তিগত কারনগুলো নিয়ে যথা সময়ে আলোচনা করব।
এখন মুশকিল হচ্ছে এতদিন পর এসে নিজের পুরোন গন্ধ টা ফিরে পাওয়া (এখন জানি এসব হয়ত একান্তই আমার নিজস্ব ভাবনা, বিশেষ কেউ যে আমার লেখা পড়ে এমন কোন সঙ্কেত আমি পাইনি।) পরিবর্তিত পরিস্থিতিতে আমার নিজের কতটা পরিবর্তন হয়েছে সেটা জানিনা তবে দু'বছর পুরোন রসে কেমন নেশা ধরবে কে জানে? আর নতুন সমস্যা হচ্ছে, এই ভাষা, বাংলায় লিখলে ক'জন পড়ে আমি জানিনা আর এই ফন্ট সবার কাছে নাও থাকতে পারে। তাই হয় আমি দুরকম ভাষাতেই লিখব নয়ত শুধু বিলিতি ভাষায় (এই এক বছরে বিশেষ কিছু হয়নি তবে দু-একটা সফটওয়ার পেয়েছি যা দিয়ে ইংরেজি টা লেখা যায় মোটামুটি) ।
Sorry! I'm really sorry! After all, it's my fault or negligence, that's why the blog was remained unused. Several times I thought to revive it, but somehow it didn't happen, again the causes was some of my personal problem and we will discuss on those stories later. Definitely. 

Now the problem is to regain the flavor I left behind two years ago, and as you know, there is a lot of 'change' happened in my place, kolkata (west Bengal). There are some problems too, like; I noticed that there are just a few countable reader or my own circle who tried to have a look over my blog, but it is really difficult to read Bengali in Roman language and if I write it in a Bengali front it would remain the same problem those who don't have the Bengali font and mostly most of the blog visitors are not Bengali (I'm sorry again, I wish I could write the whole in my language). So next, onward I will try to write the same piece in two languages and if sometimes I failed, then please consider me my Bengali friends it will be in English.

MON KURONO KICHU KOTHA.....

vabchi suru kori kivabe? karonaj ja likhbo ta ke bujhbe? na khub bajei ikhbo tai e ashonka.
"jol rastay saji tramline/ ar kobitay shuye kapplate."- ei line ta kano amake kaNday ami janina.
"aha uttap koto sundor tui thermometer e maple" ei line ta sunle amar chobi ankte echa kore pahari jhornar dhare bose amar ojana, odekha sei meyetar jake roj roj khuji r...
"priyo bondhur para nijhum/chena chand chole jai rikshay"- eta sunle sottie kichu bolte parina..."ami vule jai kake chaitam/ rtui kake valobasti" kivabe bojhabo bolun ei line ta amar moto kore j bujhbe tarpor sottie kore bolte gele ami je poristhitei thaki na kano preme to porboi, ar moneo thakbe na(tar-o) age piche ar kichu, kau ache ba chilo kina....
"posha balisher niche poth-ghat/ jara sostay ghum kinto,
tara kobe chere geche bondor/ ami palte niyechi ringtone"-biswash ami ei kotha gulor mane bojhate parbona kintu ei kotha gulo sathe amar moto kore je ga vejate parbe take bodhhoy oibalisher nicher poth-ghate paoa jabe, ajkal to amar ghum khub dami hoyegeche tai hoyto se oi bondorei opekha korche ar ami amar ei ami take niye ringtone bodoler khelay metechi............
"tobu barbar toke dak di/ eki upohar naki sasti
ami vule jai kake chaitam/ r tui kake valo basti"-
tomar dosh noy go, bhul ta amare.... ami jor kore daki tomay, jor kore prem kori
ami jani tumi amay valobaso kintu amar premer songya alada, amai jantam tumi onyorokom tobu tene hichre tomake songi kori...diner seshe sasti hoye daray....

kotha theke ki j holo...

sakal er dike amar mood ta off chilo ar AUTOGRAPH cinemar trailer r oi 'amake amar moto thakte dao' ganta amake khub nara dai, khub chagiye dai. tokhon jehetu mood ta ektu senti chilo tai ekta lekha aschilo, amar jodio likhe rakha uchit chilo kintu ta r hoyni ektu kaje beriachilam r hya ei ghotonata thik sakaler na dupurer, oboshyo ami bela korei uthi r otha istok aj amar mood off. jakge boddo baje bokchi modda kotha holo oi lekhata holo na oboshyo ekta kobita holo r hya ektu proshongshao pelam setar jonyo.
ebar bikele kajta jothabidhi holo kintu pore amar ekta mushkil holo. amar ek bndhu bujhlen amar ekta demo video tullo, ekta shoot korbo tar jonyo. valoi laglo kintu pichon theke ekta shot-e dekhi amar chuler sithir dikta jano ektu chul patla hoye geche.khub maratmok kotha eta,jani apnara hoyto mukh tipe hasben kintu amar samne ghor bipod. amar chul bostuti amar khub priyo,r nehat mondo-o noy, tobe amar sculp e khuskir dorun chul er quality ektu noshto hoyeche, seta ter pai kintu oto patta dieni. kintu aj khub aghat peyechi ebar ekta babostha nitei hoche. aro ekta dukho ache setar kotha bolle aro beshi hasi pabe, hoyto peter peshi te cramp dhore jete pare. kothata holo: "ami bohu cheshta koreo roga hote parchi na" samne aabar pujo asche ufff!!!!
etodin janen temon chap nieni kintu public demand, krishnar lila, ar amar samanyo mehonoter fole amar 40" komor 38" hoyeche. kichu jinis ja age porte lojja petam ekhno pai, tobe pora jai. lov bere geche kintu ar ektuo progress hoche na. kotha holo apnara bolben vaiti ektu sobur koro, 'eto koshto kore chorbir pahar baniyecho emnie dhose jabe? tumi gaye hawa lagiyeghurbe ta ki hoy!' na ta hoy na ami ta hote bolchio na, tobe kina oi dukher kotha bolte echa holo tai bolllam. amar pranero sokha abar amake dekhte chaichilo khub tar jonyo-o dorkarchilo ektu nijeke share korar tobe ja choran choralam ki r bolbo?
tobe kina janen asole amar mool somosya holo ami thik por por kaj korte parchina. jake banglay bole guchiye kaj kora,o bepare emnie ami kaNcha tobe amake to kore khete hobe. gal vora kotha boli, loke vabe ami boro honu, edike kodoli gachei roilo. tahole ki cholbe?
jak aj bujhlen dukho ta jor legeche, aj borong 80. oracle nai nai er golpota pore likhbo, kintu likhboi ba kivabe eta to joddur jani sensored jaiga... acha dekha jabe khon.

paranero sokha...

ami ekhuni ektu age amar ek ovinno hridoy bndhu k tar lekha niye gyan dilam, hoyto okei shudu erokom ta korte pari tobu mane lekhar somoy oto kheyal ki rakha jai? robi babur o koto gan ache kano j likhlen tini seta bojha jay na, r jodi ba likhlen tar sonkolon kano korlen seta bojha aro dushkor. jak ami amar bndhur kothay chilam, se boro apon amar, hmmm... ta dhorun 1996 saal theke. ei dekhun ki bollte chaichi r ki bolchi. asole bolte chaichi gyan deoata amar swavab noy, mane gyan na thik, ami nije ja parina ta niye onyo ke upodesh debo! tobe kina hoyto duti lok ke ami erokom dite pari prithibite tader nijoswo lokera rag korleo hoyto tara rag korbe na, amar ei balyo bndhuti tader ekjon, nam kore bolbo? name ki jai ase bolun or nam jodi asit boron hoto tobe ki o amake eto valo basto na? naki danter daktar hole amader somporko noshto hoye jeto?
biswash korun ami khub iye jake banglay bole harami type, valo(vodro) lekhay ekta kharap shobdo proyog korlam nahole amar kharapotwo ta bojhano jeto na, eta kharap er modhye sob theke valo. ami personally khub sukhi manush du charte chotobelar bndhu chara r karur proti amar kono pirit nei. amar jesob bndhura amake khub valobase(?) othocho tader theke ami manosik trpiti ebng amar manosik status melena tader ami just vule gechi, kaje lagle nirdwidhay mone kori abar kaj hoye gele vule jai. ami chai protyekdin amar notun kore bndhu toiri hok jader sathe ami kotha bole tripti pabo jara amake bujhbe jader sathe mishle kichu amar manosik unnoti ghotbe ami chotushpodiyo budhijukto shikhito dwipod jontuder manush bole vabte parina shudu tara amar paray ba school e porto bole tader bndhu vbate aami parbo na vabbo na. kintu ei chele ta asit boron ba amar jigri er kotha ta alada, jibone ei ekta manush k hariye ami proti muhurte chaitam kono din kono ekta muhurte tar sathe jano kono ekta ojana rastar more,ba metroy ba bus jevabe jekhane hok jano ekbar dekha hoye jai... boro obantor hoyto ba boro neka lekha eita kintu vogoban amake motamuti ja chai den kharap ta taratri den valo ta mon theke chaile den deri kore.
THANK YOU DARLING MURARI MOHON.
ETA AMAR BNDHUR NAM HOTE PARE NAM E KI ASE JAY, JOY GOSWAMI BOLE GECHEN NA. :p 80.

AJ DINTA BORO VALO....

koddin por j eto valo ghum ghum ekta din paoa galo ki bolbo, khichuri khabo vebechilam ma korlo na. ki r kora bolun, jara khay na ba khaoa niye jader dhanai-panai ache(jemon amar bone[sister]) manushe tader khaoa niyei bishesh chintito thake, tarupor ami abar ektu hrisgto-pushto, khaoa niye khub ekta bayanakka konodino korini, to tai sokole(amar MAA) vabeN o emnie kheye nebe. hya majhe majhe ami nije niye khai bote, nije baniyeo khai tobe tai bole ki amay ektu sajiye khaoano jaina?
amar ek girl frend chilo janen somporke amar thakuma hoten, tini okale more giye amake ekebare pothe bosiye gelen. tini amake bere o khaoaten abar jhereo khete diten. amar kopal tai kharap, chirokal bujhlen moshai, jotobar amar ek ekta choloman bank hoyeche jesob bank e accoun kholar jnyo kono formalities lagena,jokhn chibo tokhn ja chaibo tai pabo. erokom du duto bank chilo amar pot pot kore du bochorer modhye bondho hoye galo. ekjon amar dadu(thakur da) r ekjon amar 'aai'. AAI mane uni amar babar kaka hoten kono ogyato karone ami onar orokom namkoron korechilam.
jakge valo din seta bujhtei parchen nostalgic hoye porechilum, Tulsi babu valo din hole ektu hawa khete chaiten ami ektu urgir mangsho khete chialam aj brishtir ojuhate setao holo na. aj kono bndhu o paoa jachena oboshyo bandhobi pete mon chaich e giye besh kfc r chiken saNtabo...
dekhi kauke paoa jai kina 80 hya, valo thakben....

...JETA CHILONA CHILO NA SETA NA PAOAI THAK....SOB PELE NOSHTO JIBON.

amar lekha line noy, notun ekta cinema asche bangla, AUTOGRAPH setar ekta ganer line. line ta kal amar ekta osompurno golpo k sesh korte sahajyo koreche. ami blog likhe anondo pai abar pai na-o. amar duto mon ache ekta mon khali valo thakte chay r ekta valo rakhte chay ba hoyto valobaste chay, sottie bolchi ami janina jara osadharon valobasar lekha lekhen, jader lekha porlei valobasar echagulo chulbuliye othe tara nijera sottie orokom valobaste paren kina. Rabi babu parten kintu Sunil paren kina janina. bolte lojja nei ami romantic lekha kotota valo likhi porokh korini tobe prem kori churanto Uttom babu ki Shah Rukh khaner porei ami(apnader amar performance dekhar sujog hoyni bole nak sNitkoben na).
kintu oi valo thakte chaoa montake sy dile onek kichu korte korte hoy, sottie valo thaka jai, valo kaj kora jai, shudhu valobasar lokgulo khub koshto pabe... r ekhanei amar osubiha. nahole kobe sha... thak.
jak ge abar apnader mone hobe ami frustrated lekha likhchi na na ta na jak pore bojhabo... aj 80